...i will deliver in 3 weeks time, so that makes baby in gestation 35 weeks ++ or 36 weeks. Can't really predict the actual date from conception til' now though so we're gambling with numbers here. But I hope I can pass that 37 weeks mark though because I don't want anything jabbed into my ass, literally!!!
3 WEEKS!
Am I ready? Honestly, I don't know...though I smile just looking at the sight of newborn babies. But I do cringe at the thought of having 2 years of sleepless nights when baby in here comes. But i love having the joy of raising my own children, with my own bare hands, without any domestic help. That's a bonus. Because I know, that's how I raised them to be. Looking at mirza now, at how difficult he was to care for when he was small, all the hair raising moments, the cries I battled with, the tantrums that sometimes makes me give-up all together, ect. But mirza now is most easy to care for. Not because he's a 7 y/o kid but really, I can see the difference in caring for him before and now. Alhamdulillah as they say, susah2 dulu senang2 kemudian. And mirza is easy now.
I hope this baby will do the same for me, like what his big brother has done. It really does take all the pain away in being able to see first hand what I have sewn. All those years of heart-breaks, difficulty, feeling like a bad mother, ect. all those, gone by just seeing them grow-up.
...so 3 more weeks...
Ya Allah, give me all the strength i will need soon...
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